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Post by shewolfe on May 15, 2008 14:53:15 GMT -5
"I will no longer be a whore for band-aids. Self-esteem, by definition, must originate from the self. It does not come from external symbols. That is like trying to fill a bottomless well, futile. If I do this, then I will be that. If I become this, then I will feel like that. The problem is that as we become what we are not, then we get further and further away from who we are. Then we are lost. What remains is something else, an object, soulless. The only cure for low self-esteem is self-esteem. We do not get there by objectifying ourselves, and if I see myself and carry myself as an object, I will be seen and treated as an object. I am so much more, to myself, therefore to others. God sees our perfection, and until we share that clear perspective, we are in denial of our spiritual essence, and we are in denial of our perfection. What is the magic number of people who actively adore me, before I will accept that I am worthy? It is a bottomless well, that cannot be filled, as long as I do not believe it. I will never believe it unless I judge myself through God's eyes, rather than through the eyes of my damaged past. A life spent in low self-esteem is a spiritual waste and tragedy. I do not decry my treatment as a "thing" if that is only how I see myself. The attention that I seek, the low appeal that I require, is truly my creation. If I present myself as a package, I must expect to be treated as a package, a product. I am so much more. It is my responsibility how I am treated by others. I set the bar. I demand that quality in myself, and I expect to be treated that way. It works, in fact, it is the only way that works, in my opinion. Ponder this. "
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Post by Shadout Mapes on May 15, 2008 14:57:28 GMT -5
All hail SOW! We will be here whenever he wants to. But if it's sex he wants... >< Tomasina ChicaWolverina!
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Post by shewolfe on May 15, 2008 15:00:17 GMT -5
All I know is....that life would never be the same without you in it. What ever you have to do, to feel whole, to feel complete, to feel worthy, you must do. Because that is the truth. You are whole, you are complete, you are worthy. I love you dearly with my whole heart, as my best friend in the whole world...you are someone who gives, and gives, and gives, and never expects anything in return, and you are someone who loves deeply, and cares about people. You have touched the lives of thousands, and I am merely one of them...but you must know this....how you have touched my life and I never felt worthy myself until I found you. You brought real love into my life, and forced me to look at my own issues and face the reality of who I was. You did that.
Please come back soon. We will all miss you, but take the time you need and hear my words. You are a special man, a special person, one who is deserving of this recognition because of how you have shared your heart with others, and given so much of yourself, all for the peace of mind and love for others. An unselfish person you are.
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Post by shewolfe on May 16, 2008 1:41:31 GMT -5
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Post by shewolfe on May 16, 2008 1:54:49 GMT -5
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Post by shewolfe on May 16, 2008 2:01:16 GMT -5
Moody Blues › The VoiceWont you take me back to school I need to learn the golden rule Wont you lay it on the line I need to hear it just one more time Oh Can you feel it Oh Wont you tell me again Tonight
Each and every heart it seems Is bounded by a world of dreams Each and every rising sun Is greeted by a lonely one Oh wont you tell me again Oh Can you feel it Oh wont you tell me again Tonight
cos out on the ocean of life my love Theres so many storms we must rise above Can you hear the spirit calling As its carried across the waves You're already falling Its calling you back to face the music And the song that is coming through You're already falling The one that its calling is you
Make a promise take a vow And trust your feelings its easy now Understand the voice within And feel the changes already beginning Oh wont you tell me again Oh Can you feel it Oh Wont you tell me again Tonight
And how many words have I got to say And how many times will it be this way With your arms around the future And your back up against the past You're already falling its calling you On to face the music And the song that is coming through You're already falling The one its calling is you
Each and every heart it seems Is bounded by a world of dreams Each and every rising sun Is greeted by a lonely one Wont you tell me again Can you feel it Oh wont you tell me again Tonightwww.youtube.com/watch?v=muNeqQPfBUY
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Post by shewolfe on May 16, 2008 2:26:35 GMT -5
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Post by davidlee on May 16, 2008 8:58:07 GMT -5
Ok, I'm a little confused. I thought we came to this place to be free from the BS. So what would prompt Phil to move on from the people who at the very least respect him? Is this a personal life issue? Sounds like a goodbye to me.......
Too bad......
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Post by Shadout Mapes on May 16, 2008 20:52:46 GMT -5
DL, it's the dark-night-of-the-soul, SOW is very deep and his mind moves in strange ways because of the things he deals in. He'll be here again or noone on this TRH will ever understand why I babble about D U N E again! ~*(G'HuGS!)*~ DL & SOW ~*(G'HuGS!)*~ >< Tomasina ChicaWolverina!
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Post by davidlee on May 19, 2008 9:56:07 GMT -5
You know Chica, I have read all of the Dune books as well. the original 3 many times. I actually had an affinity toward young Leto more so than Paul. Don't know why....maybe that April 20 B-day, eh? Hehe From Chapterhouse on they grew a little too maudlin...almost as if Herbert was trying to create a Tolkien kind of epic. Now that his son(s)? have taken over I don't know. I liked the House background books but haven't gone further. There is one series of books that I absolutely loved. Quite complex with a very unusual person for the story's hero. Don't know if you have ever read the "Thomas Covenant the Unbeliever" series of books? I believe the author (Stephen R Donaldson) is currently on his third and final trilogy installment which would bring the series to 9 books total. If you haven't read them I would highly recommend them. I know this is off topic.......so sue me!!! Hehe
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Post by Roland of Gilead on May 20, 2008 3:53:36 GMT -5
I've read the Thomas Covenant Books and loved them. But, I did have a hard time getting through "The Runes of Earth." It sure ended with a cliffhanger, though, and now that the next book is out, I want to see how it picks up. The third series, by the way, is going to be 4, rather than 3 books, according to Donaldson's website.
Never got to Chapterhouse Dune...the last book I read was "Heretics of Dune." So, I haven't touched the books his son wrote.
I did very breifly meet Frank Herbert at a Sci-Fi convention in LA in 1976.
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Post by Shadout Mapes on May 20, 2008 10:13:36 GMT -5
Ok, well DL I'm impressed with you having read them, I really am. It's just that it wouldn't be the same as it would be talking to SOW about it. My brother is always popping out D U N E metaphors into conversations, always having fun with lines from the movies etc. He's really good with all the Stilgar and Thufir quotes. You're just not like that is all. Ok. >< Tomasina ChicaWolverina!
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